Last night I was beginning to pack up a few things for our move. While I was putting away a few books of Olivia's my heart began to ache. Leaving a beautiful, loving, caring home again made me feel a little nervous. A good nervous I guess.
So I did what I usually do when I am feeling nervous and a little nostalgic... I read a few letters from some of my old mission companions. Sometimes when there is a lot of change going on in my life I like to reflect back on the time when my life started to change for the better.
My life started to change for me when I met a group of amazing friends right after high school. These people helped me to realize that life can be so beautiful, but this beauty and happiness also comes with pain and sorrow (not always in that order!) Just when I was starting to feel so comfortable in my new found happiness with these friends, a few (actually ALL!) of them started getting married, and moving on with their lives. Now, I knew that a big change was coming in my life when I turned 20, but I think I was in denial! I knew that I would serve a mission, but I could never have prepared myself for what kinds of changes that would bring to me.
Was that why that particular change was so hard for me? Now I can look back and say "YES!" Living in pure comfort and having the rug pulled out from under me! But what I didn't know was that this was the beginning of so many changes. I learned on my mission the power of the true love of Jesus Christ. The joy that I felt after the pain of leaving my "comfortable" life was so sweet!
Now, what does this have to do with me putting books away (for the 12th time in 6 years!)? I think that I am finally starting to appreciate these times of change and trial. Not only because I can look back and see all of the wonderful blessings, but the changes and hard times that we go through help make us stronger for the next time we fall, or are tried in our faith (or in this case, when we have to leave a comfortable situation and take a step into the unknown!)
These were just a few thoughts that I had this morning and I felt like I had to share them. I also found this quote taped to my Spanish scriptures, which I felt was fitting for my feelings I am having!
"You must learn to walk to the edge of the light, and then a few steps into the darkness; then the light will appear and show the way before you."
-President Harold B. Lee-
Thank you Bev and Gar for welcoming us into your home. We love you. Who knows, we may be back soon! He he!
8 comments:
Thanks for sharing your thoughts! I think we all need a reminder about walking forward with faith - I know I do! :)
Where are you moving now? I'm going to need a bit more information out of you missy! And when are you coming back? There have already been discussions of a huge girls night the next time you get your butt back here, so let us know so that we can plan it!
Moving blows man. But I am so happy for you guys, you need this. I love you and livvy and kellen so much!
Camille I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you! I agree change is hard..I run away from it as fast as I can. But I know when I have taken the leap of faith, I have realized that with the Lords help we CAN do hard things and we WILL grow stronger becaue of it! I know you will make the best of whatever situation you are put into. Thats just how you are.
love you
Camilley where are you moving too? You are such a good example to me in so many ways!!
Wow! You are simply amazing by your words, everytime you share your thoughts your words are always something I needed to hear. so thank you! You guys moving closer to school? Like Brooke mentioned next time your in town just plan on girls night. Love ya! good luck with your move..
I just have to share that when Riley and I moved out of my parents house to live in Student housing, I thought what the heck are we doing? We can't afford this, and I didn't want to leave my mom and dad and all their help, but it turned out to be the best thing that we could have ever done for ourselves. We went through a lot of trials and a lot of happiness, but I know that the blessings that came with us proving to others and ourselves that we could make it, was all worth it. You guys will be just fine, you'll see.
I am in the middle of moving too and it can be very hard! Its very emotional but in the long run I know its good to test your faith. I wish you the best of luck with everything!!love ya
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